Sept 15: It would appear that the time in between posts here is increasing… It was never my intention to abandon this blog—life has simply decided to move in a direction that necessitated my time and attention flow differently. There’s a sense in the air that inspired me to return to this place and write something today, though, so here I am.
Everything has changed quite extensively since I last posted. Hell, everything has been steadily changing since I started this blog. In a lot of ways my choice to start writing in this space marked the start of an intensive transformation process, coinciding with my trip to Costa Rica. I’ve written quite a bit here about my perspective and subsequent experiences with the Venus archetype as of late—especially through the Kabbalistic and mystic Christian lenses—and now that process has been brought far more directly and tangibly into my physical reality. It’s one thing to speak of such matters from the abstract vantage point of a single man; it’s substantially more realized when one has a lovely feminine counterpart to co-create an embodied counterpoint melody with. Venus has indeed blessed this solar son!
Our individual life-streams were drawn towards each other’s just before I had left to embark on that personal venture I only briefly touched upon in my last post, managing to maintain the connection through those few months of separation. Since my return to what has been my current earthly center-point of Vancouver Island, our connection has deepened, a relationship blossomed, and a shared life newly undertaken. I type these words now in a cozy little cabin nestled in a peaceful piece of property on one of the smaller Gulf Islands nearby—a place where my beloved partner and I will spend the month looking after a pair of charming cats, and essentially draw up the plans on how we want our lives to go and flow, both as sovereign individuals and as a unified unit.
The first of those two states of being really is so crucial and fundamental to the functionality of the second. It’s so easy to want to escape into another, especially when love is so powerfully felt in relation to them. Romantic love truly is a powerful drug—and like any other drug, when overly indulged in with thoughtless excess, it can seriously disrupt one’s life. I have never had that very easy tendency so purposefully challenged than what this relationship is proving to provide. Keeping centered within myself has become a deeply important part of my own life process, vital to maintaining a clear connection to my creative essence and the greater divine voice. Fortunately, that is a shared value, and one we both strive to keep steady for both ourselves and each other.
There is an idea— or an image—I work to keep solid in that regard that iterates on the oh-so-common triad/trinity symbol so deeply embedded within nearly all esoteric wisdom. The foundation is to honor and value the self (love thyself), then from there show the same honor and value to the other (love thy partner), and ultimately through both show that honor and value to the divine (love thy holy source). By loving myself I love my partner; by loving my partner I love the divine; I love the divine by loving myself. All three states and expressions of love are really just three angles of the same love/process.
Approaching a relationship like this, at the foundational level, creates a very different relationship than any I have been a part of before. There is much more space—for authentic expression of self, honest communication, enjoyment of one another, freedom for what is to be what is, and for life to flow as it wants and needs to. There is a deeper quality of safety and comfort when there isn’t such an excessive emphasis on the other as the primary (or exclusive) source of fulfillment that ultimately leads to more of one’s relational needs being met.
The ironic errors of the ego really does seem to be infinite. The more we grasp or impose or guilt-trip or demand or expect or force the less we ultimate benefit, yet those approaches to relationships (not only romantic) seem to be the default far more often than not. Our relationships really are a mirror to our own reality; our own true state of being; the actual affect of our influence. The ego resists, rejects and denies its part in the various disruptions and dysfunctions that emerge in our relationships, preferring the victim costume and playing out the story where other is the sole cause—futile attempts at deferring responsibility in energetic effect.
I don’t want to speak too much of my personal experiences regarding the cultivation of this current relationship, as it’s really a story that need be only for my partner and I—and touching in on what I wrote about last time, I believe it’s better to keep the right ratio of distance between one’s personal life and the online sphere. I will say it’s provided a tremendous challenge to my emotional resilience, my mental clarity, my devotion to love as an essence, my willingness to allow things to be as they need to be, my patience, my faith, my trust, and ultimately my dedication to my own growth and integrity. My willingness to step up to those challenges has lead to an ever-expanding space for shared love, profound comfort, powerful transformation, a greater depth of physical awareness and embrace, an abundance of fun and laughter, a continuous unfolding of beautiful moments, an increased sense of spirit, a deeper attunement to life, and an incredibly satisfying, ongoing adventure! The level of love I feel for this woman is remarkable, beyond what my mind could have anticipated was possible, and it streams out into the world at large.
As a final little note here before I sign off (she’s almost got dinner ready—another perk of partnership!), the same day we had our first official date, I picked up a book exploring the full nuances of Mary Magdalene through the lens of mystic Christian lovemaking (or the fifth way), taking from both the canonical gospels as well as the Gnostic writings. The author clearly favored the narrative equation of Jesus and Mary as divine lovers (something I obviously agree with), seeing them as an example of sacred sex in service of spirit. Considering what I had written about here before, based largely on my own intuitive understanding of that idea, and what the woman I had been on that date with has proven to mean to me, it acted as another wonderful experience of synchronicity. I actually teared up when I first opened the book, even before I read a single word from it.
It’s amazing how life works. There really is magic everywhere if one chooses to open up to it. I hope everyone reading this finds magic somewhere in your life today!
ACMindworks 
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